While she sleeps.

She lies in bed with a black silk sheet draped over her body, her eyes closed.  The breathing comes out of her like she is asleep, as her chest slowly rises and falls.  It has been a long few weeks for her.  Her body slowly stirs in the night as her brows furrow and her breathing quickens.  Her mind races and bickers with itself.

"No, please....I am sorry."

"Its not your fault"

"Why?"

"Only they know"

"I am good, I am a good person."

"Yes you are"

"But, I want to die."

"No, you don't..."

"Everyone I love leaves or dies"

"Wrong again Little one, they are there you are just not seeing them."

"Why do I have to leave my home to please people?"

"Don't, because you will never please everyone, take care of those that truly care."

"What is wrong with me?"

"Nothing little one, those that love you will never ask you to change who you are to suit their ideals.  Free yourself from this curse you feel."

"What am I?"

"You my precious Angel, are just that.  A precious, beautiful Angel and my daughter."

She turns over onto her side still sleeping, her hands placed slightly under her cheek, her lips pursing in her sleep as tears falls from her eyes while she slumbers.   She whimpers softly as she blindly reaches out with her hand "Mom? I need you."

Her body turns again quickly in her sleep onto her other side, as her eyes quickly open as she breaths heavily, tears still running down from her eyes.  She sits up on the side of her bed, blinking in almost shock, running a hand through her red dreads wondering if this just happened.  Her brilliant green eyes look around the room quickly as she calls out again "Mom?"

The voice whispers from out of everywhere, she isn't sure if its from within her mind or somewhere else. "I wish I could stay, I need to go.  Don't be anything but you.  Who cares if people don't think you are Matari.  You, my little Lit are my light, you are my Angel.  That's who you need to be.  Never change for anyone but you.  I am sorry, I wish I could stay, I cant."

She brings a hand to her dark cheek and shivers as it feels like something brushes against it, wrapping an arm around her stomach as her sleepy green eyes, fill with water "Mom?  Please?  I promise, I won't."

Slipping back into her bed and pulling her black silk sheets back up over her, one hand where the ice shiver as felt by her.  Confused was this her mind, or did her mom really visit her.  She walks between heaven and hell, now she makes the choice to leave the hell behind, slowly falling back asleep.