She curls her arms around pillow as she wakes up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat from the dreams that plague her. She clings onto it almost like a death grip as tears from her brilliant green eyes. Her dark body has goose bumps trailing down her arms and back. Wondering if her what she just dreamt of has any prevalence of what is going on.
She sits up in her bed slipping on a white robe, doing it up she goes and sits over in a large recliner chair in her room. She slowly rocks back and forth thinking to herself of what she just saw. All metaphorically and you can never tell what has meaning and what doesn't. She does have her own natural fears as any person would.
She mutters to herself "Am I doing the right thing?
A woman's voice answer back as she looks into her mirror across the way "You are happy here, you have a home."
She blinks looking at the mirror as she tilts her head slightly , as she rubs her temples slightly confused and a bit disorientated "I saw fire, I saw pain....so much pain and hurt."
The strange voice whispers into her ear "Pain, and hurt of the life you are leaving behind, little one do not cry, fire is a form of cleansing a sense of rebirth. You are walking this path to be reborn. You are safe, you are home."
She shakes her head sleepily her brilliantly sparking green eyes filled with doubt, that it manifests in her dreams knowing that she still doing to do what she has intended to, for her this beyond the point of return. No more being forced to change for the betterment of some Republic or Empire.
Doubts are normal in one's mind if they are making the right choice that can profoundly change their lives in one way or another. Any good decision making is not done without doubt the hard part is following through with it. Her dark body shivers again, as she looks into the mirror "Blood, so much blood" She looks down at her hands, for a split second seeing blood on them and then she blinks and recoils her head backwards.
She shivers quite noticeable as she feels something cold on her shoulder and then the haunting voice speaks to her as she looks into the mirror across from her. "There is blood on everyone hands, no one is innocent save the children. You are a Capsuleer, one of the few chosen for this calling. You are in all aspects a demi god. My precious Literia you are not alone, remember that." The voice fades slowly.
Her eyes go wide as she blinks as she hears soft whispers "Remember." She looks into the mirror and she isn't sure if her mind again is playing tricks on her or is it her mom's spirit visiting her. She rubs her eyes tiredly as she stands up and moves back to her bed, slipping off her robe and under her silk sheets. She grabs the pillow next to her and curls around it, almost smelling something as she closes her eyes, thinking this is all a trick of the mind of the stress she is under. As a sharp chill presses into her forehead, her eyes go wide as she sees nothing and then slowly closes her eyes again and falls asleep, remembering something from not to long ago with a serene smile on her face. Thinking of a time, where she felt safe, warm, and loved.
Remember.......remember you are loved.
Remember......you have a good soul.
Remember ..... you are a good for the kids.
Remember .... you ARE an Angel.
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It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not. ~Author Unknown
Put your future in good hands - your own. ~Author Unknown
Oh wow very nice lit.
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