Stand in the Rain

What a night she thought to herself.  She steps off a planetary shuttle from the station.  She looks up at the sky and sighs.  Its going to rain here too.  She flicks up the collar of her coat, sticking her hands back in her pocket, as she feels the rain start to come down on her.  She continues to walk not even sure where she is going.

She thinks about the nights events, her black dreads clinging to the frame of her face.  Shivering as a cold breeze goes through her.  Someone she thought as a friend, she has know for over a year just doesnt remember her.  Saying horrible, vile things that came out, she was almost sicked by it and wanted to be sick.  The woman she knew wouldnt have said those things.

But.....

Then again, not the woman she knew or cared for.  She retaliated with more horrible things that came out of the young brutor's mouth.  She holds her side as she walks with the knot building in it.  She folds over in half as she coughs slightly, gagging slightly from the stress.

The woman she thinks of... was one of the first Amarrians she trusted.  Even with all the pain, destruction and heartache that was caused on all sides.  She is angry at her, she....she...wants to hurt her for all the pain she caused tonight and for someone she cares about still.

She walks down what appears to be a road, the tears on her face mingling with the rain a cold to the bone runs through her.  Thinking of how they disrespected her corp mate Karmilla, calling her gift bought on blood money, calling her smug. Did they ever really think that perhaps with their narrow minded pole up the ass that they are all good and godly bullshit that maybe just maybe that is what pushed her away.  Because in the end they are just as corrupt as we Pirates are, if not more.

The word blood money wrings through her mind even more....Everything they do is blood money the Amarrians because it is bought on the back of the Matari and with their blood.

She shakes her head no because she knows it isn't true, not everyone in the empire are like this.  Just the vocal few, that ruin it for the rest.  She looks up at the sky with a small smile as she feels the rain beat against her skin, because she thinks of those she knows that aren't like that.

He took another shot at Vince...really how mature.  So much for be a forgiving person.

These are the first few Amarrians...that were well it doesn't matter now.   Words once they are spoken no matter how badly you want them to cant be taken back.  No matter how badly sometimes you want to go  back to what was in the past you cant either, for the future would change.

She has people she cares about and loves, going back means she wouldnt have them and well she can not bear the thought of going through it without them.

Her head swims, looking at her hands as they shake of what almost happened at the Club House.

Remembering her words she said to Karmilla, because she and Vince were arguing...She was really scared they would ... not be together and well they are good for each other.

She remembers yelling to get their attention, speaking directly at Karmilla "You are angry, upset and hurt by what happened.  And every right to be.  But you are taking it out on the wrong person.  You love him *She points to Vince* Albeit you are going to marry him.  Think about what you are saying."

She wasn't done yet, she looked right at Vince "You are my best friend Vince, you are hurt because you want to help and dont know how.  You want to protect those that you love.  The line of questions is not right for this time.  Later okay?  You love her, and are going to marry her."

Telling them both now to act like it.  She then told them both to go home.

In the end it worked, they talked and worked things through.  It was hard for our dark haired Brutor to do this.  He is her first love, her first of a lot of things but Karmilla makes him happier then she has seen.   They both have gone separate paths in their personal lives that led them away but friends is a good place to be.

It still hurts, even if they both have moved on.

She looks up, seeing the moon peak through the night sky for a moment, water dripping down from her face and her dreads, thinking of her loved ones "I love you, time to go home."

She coughs again walking back hearing some song that plays.

"So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain"

--------------------------------------------------------
One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else.”

You've spent your whole life running and running, trying to catch up with something that has never been there for you. And all you've done is go farther and farther away from the precious love that's been waiting for you all the time.

Love sought is good, but given unsought is better.
- William Shakespeare

The song quoted is "Stand in the Rain' By SuperChic(k)